My sympathies to LW; it may be so very hard to get rid of unproductive habits.
Nowhere inside her page was SLAP explicit about just what she desired. She stated she desired ’emotional connection’, but, beyond that, did not explain exactly exactly what this will appear to be or feel to her e.g. A loving, monogamously committed relationship that is long-term. I might think she requires the courage to look at by herself to see exactly just just what she really hopes for–especially whether or not it’s young ones, only at that belated stage. This does not suggest telling by herself she is a deep failing if she does not have it; it instead means being upfront with herself about any of it and strategising about how to offer by herself the greatest shot at it.